I started to do research on witchcraft in order to receive more insight into what it meant to me. I found that witch craft today is experiencing a boom particularly with women and the #MeToo movement. The phrase, #MeToo, became an empowering battle cry for many women who found strength in one another and a voice when others were speaking the same words. At first I felt out of place with a historical movement at it's peak. I found that wardrobes were very erotic. I had never wanted to do this. When I looked closer, I realized the womanhood that I was playing dress-up in was actually the very essence of who I felt I was: a woman, a mother and a lover. I had very brief flashes into this alternate universe where I could be a powerful, lesbian witch. It would be me, fit, sensual and independence walking into clubs, wearing sexy things, and dispelling demons. It made me feel powerful.
I was given this book, Witchcraft from a Masculine Perspective, by Lilith in 2013 after I had first started to practice and adapt traditional witchcraft. I was deeply in love with the book as it was not only instructive but also reassuring. Ultimately, Witchcraft from a Masculine Perspective gave me confidence by saying, "You're a witch! You have the power to cast spells." It gave me an understanding of the patriarchal dating world and the idea that I could take this knowledge and do something about it. I sold all my money and possessions and moved to London, England, to learn witchcraft. I finally started my journey as a witch in November of 2014.
The word "witchcraft" has become a malignant term in our world today. In my search, I found a vision of witchcraft and a lot of different meanings of the word "witch." I had to believe that my witchcraft was not the same as others, but that it was my own path and I would create my own tradition within witchcraft. It took me a while to make strides as an outcast and to become my "own" individual. It took (until I found witchcraft) feeling like I was not allowed to be a woman. d2c66b5586